bought a pound of coffee before work today since i ran out this morning and noticed that the price of it was just shy of an hour's wages at my current rate. spent a good chunk of time reflecting on that while working, that an hour of my life is worth a pound of standard ground coffee, and it really makes me think that anyone that can manage to go their entire lives without ever having to work for anyone other than themselves is truly brilliant
i've been selling my time for money since i was twelve and i've worked in so many different positions and configurations at this point, been paid like royalty and paid like a peasant, and ultimately at this point i genuinely don't think there's any virtue or wisdom that is gained from doing this that could not be better learned through some other method. it isn't a matter of pay or position, if you're selling your time towards something you genuinely do not care about it all ends up feeling the same in the end
in this regard i respect a man like kp who has gone into business creating something genuinely interesting and laudable, as to me it seems like such a thing is actually worth the use of time necessary in its creation. in my dealings however pretty much everything i have found myself actually interested in pursuing is either a skill out-of-time, considered useless, or so heavily bastardized in the modern world that it is no longer appealing. as a result i've been slowly but surely trying to reduce my need for money at all over time as it coincides with not needing to forfeit my time in its making, but it always leaves me wondering if things have to be this way. i'm inclined to say no as the whims of the market seem totally arbitrary and often fabricated, but at the same time if such things are fabricated that would imply they could be redirected towards positive, wholesome ends rather than the stupid bullshit minmaxed retardation it is currently
i think a goal in my 30s coming up here may be heavily reducing or eliminating my need to sell my time for money, as it seems like an interesting obstacle to tackle
