for some reason i was trying to move to a different country with my cousin nico, we ended up in the czech republic and i tried to explain to a guy at the airport what were trying to do but he only spoke greek (?) so i gave up and we decided we should fly to cambria, which was an island on its own to the east according to my map (???) but i only had twenty dollars so we started walking north to get to serbia (??????) but the dream ended when i got hit by a bus trying to cross a street

i was only asleep for fifteen minutes but this dream felt like it lasted for hours. i have a very vague recollection of the ridiculous map i kept referencing and i wish i could draw it out because it was truly absurd

fell asleep to flash playing splatoomy and had an extremely vivid and dreadful dream i was working as a programmer again and had a deadline coming up in a few days. it got me really fucked up and i demand an apology

sacrifices must be made one way or another

yesterday i dreamt that they disabled neko atsume 1 and remotely uninstalled it in order to force people to play neko atsume 2 (which is more heavily monetized), and i was mad enough that i was about to fedpost at hitpoint but then the dream plot changed to something else i don't remember

ETA: also in the dream both games also had homescreen widgets, which i think would be genuinely cute as a real feature

just remembered another subconscious vague mildly neurotic fear dream i had some time ago

i very rarely use a pin when paying for stuff with card, so i barely remember my pin, and even then it's mostly as shape and less as numbers. i once had a dream that i had to pay for something, but for some reason the pinpad was laid out as two columns, like
12
34
56
78
90
and trying to do the conversion from shape to numbers to buttons again in my head was so difficult that it started stressing me out and woke me up

i remember nothing else but my most recent dream involved a conversation about dreams being really cool. neat self-promotion but i will never sleep

for the last two weeks or so i've had the same type of dream every single night with minor variations. i'm in some impossibly labrynthine underground complex with no windows that seems to span forever, sometimes alone and sometimes with strangers that seem familiar yet are unrecognizable. i'm both trying to live and find a way out at once, meaning i only wander for so long and so far in one direction before doubling back and going back to where my "room" is. the people in the dream never follow me but rather stay in the same areas around where the dream starts. the paths and rooms always change and are never consistent, and in the dream i try to figure out where to go and why things seem to constantly change but never have a consistent answer. everything is filthy with dust and grease, some rooms incredibly large with enormous broken machines or other strange objects in them while some rooms are the size of a closet in one direction and very long in the other

this last one in particular was strange, as i distinctly remember there was this one massive room with a dirt floor that a bunch of the strangers were tilling up to try and grow some plants, but the ceiling was solid with no windows and the only light was that same dim ambience that filled the rest of the complex. the dirt felt wrong, false, but i can't explain why. no one planted seeds and nothing was growing, but they were working like mad to make rows and mound up dirt as if the act itself would conjure plants out of the ground. later on in my wanderings i found a strange flat boat in a filthy pool that i managed to get running, and somehow a bay door opened on the far wall that went "outside" to which i hastily drove towards, only to have the boat suddenly sink. i began drowning while looking up at a dim, opaque sky not too dissimilar to the ambiance of the labrynth. i woke up after i began sinking

i've already had difficulties sleeping lately, and these bastard dreams make me never want to sleep again as they very deeply unsettle me. of course i always wake up relieved to see the beautiful forest outside the windows next to my bed, but the dreams always feel absurdly long as if years of real time are passing. i wonder what it means