I LOVE CARROT CAKE SO MUCH HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANGUI

my friend who was born on a 29th of february always celebrates it in March 1st since, according to him, "at that day you can consider the 29th has passed already"

but it's true that it depends from person to person

just spent the last four days hiking and fucking around in san francisco. it kicked so much ass and i took absolutely zero pictures so you'll have to take my word for it, instead enjoy the usual shit shack grave update image i took on the way back. the sign is unfortunately gone but don't let that stop you from looking on the bright side of life

hope ur california trip was fun! and god damn, the shitversary is probably at least a decade ago at this point

It usually barely ever rains over here and I think this is like the 4th week in a row with rain in almost every day. I didn't mind it for the first couple of weeks but it's starting to get annoying.

and to think that for some of you this is just a regular tuesday

a beautiful spring morning in northern wisconsin

got laid off as surplus yesterday lole

not terribly surprised considering my position really wasn't necessary as full time year round and i was more surprised when they offered full time to me in the first place, and i was starting to get pretty sick of the commute and job in general after six years. my boss was a bomb ass cool dude and i'm going to miss working for him and he's fucked going into summer with no assistant so hopefully they figure it out in short order (unlikely because there are no workers in that area)

pretty excited to move on, there's a few cool places closer to me hiring including a place that fabricates and preassembles log cabin homes on hwy 2 that would be interesting to work at. the unfortunate thing is i'm most certainly going to be taking a big pay hit and the next place is going to make me actually work instead of fucking around most of the time. gunna enjoy being a neet for the rest of the week since my severance package was huge and the weather is nice

been about a month now and i've established a budget and a new routine in regards to employment, and after everything's settled i've had a stillness of mind that i haven't had in some years now. working for a large company is nice because you're essentially anonymous and as long as you vaguely do what you're supposed to no one says anything, and no one's really keeping an eye on you because the largess of the corporation doesn't require it. i have never cared about working and i hate selling my time generally so the less i have to care about it the better, and the schedule has left me with the mornings to myself which is my favorite time of day :D

most of the churches i attended are disintegrating rapidly and a lot of my social ties (except for a few close friends) have become very distant, which frankly i'm fine with. because i have to work sunday evenings now i've stopped attending any service at all in favor of just reading scripture and meditating while working the land, which frankly feels closer to god than the foibles i've been dealing with in the church. i pretty much only go into town to work, and i just buy the things i need on my lunch hour so i have as much time to work on the land as possible. occasionally i'll visit a friend in town, but for the most part i just wait for them to visit me instead

i've noticed that a lot of my bad habits, including drinking, have essentially disappeared after i've withdrawn socially which has really made me wonder quite a bit about how to evaluate the effects of my relationships with others going forward. currently i have few firm answers but i'm also feeling a peace beyond description so i'm taking my time to figure it out. my plan currently is to continue withdrawing for the summer and meditating on what i've learned as well as the scriptures so i can begin rebuilding my relationships in the winter in a more effective way than just rushing into everything immediately as i had been doing this last half decade or so. i do genuinely believe that sometimes the best thing that can happen to a person is everything becoming suddenly uprooted, which was exactly what i did when i came here originally so i'm used to parsing it out now

Well I promised more posts and I feel bad I haven't made them...I've been having a very sad problem lately with the new thinkpad I got (T14 gen 1). It started out with some of my torrents and downloads not working right or cancelling (I thought it was just bad internet) then all of a sudden I noticed my Firefox tabs were crashing. Well I thought perhaps Firefox had a bug and ran "sudo apt update" and what I got was "Sudo: segmentation fault (core dumped)" and I immediately knew something was wrong. Turns out I have at least a few MiB of corrupted RAM, on a laptop with soldered RAM. It also has a removable SODIMM slot (which is full) so I HOPE and PRAY that is where the problem is. I do not want to own a brick.

woke up this afternoon to this text from my old boss



:3c

and now imma go FISHING AND SWIMMING with a buddy, have to inspect a car for a long trip tomorrow at some point too which i'm not looking forward to. one thing that kinda sucks about the two day weekends with this job is that because i work into the first weekend day and sleep it eats up half the day so it's more like a day and a half. o well