I LOVE CARROT CAKE SO MUCH HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANGUI
my friend who was born on a 29th of february always celebrates it in March 1st since, according to him, "at that day you can consider the 29th has passed already"
but it's true that it depends from person to person
my friend who was born on a 29th of february always celebrates it in March 1st since, according to him, "at that day you can consider the 29th has passed already"
but it's true that it depends from person to person
just spent the last four days hiking and fucking around in san francisco. it kicked so much ass and i took absolutely zero pictures so you'll have to take my word for it, instead enjoy the usual shit shack grave update image i took on the way back. the sign is unfortunately gone but don't let that stop you from looking on the bright side of life
hope ur california trip was fun! and god damn, the shitversary is probably at least a decade ago at this point
Dying of boredom, I'll try it all...
It usually barely ever rains over here and I think this is like the 4th week in a row with rain in almost every day. I didn't mind it for the first couple of weeks but it's starting to get annoying.
and to think that for some of you this is just a regular tuesday
and to think that for some of you this is just a regular tuesday
got laid off as surplus yesterday lole
not terribly surprised considering my position really wasn't necessary as full time year round and i was more surprised when they offered full time to me in the first place, and i was starting to get pretty sick of the commute and job in general after six years. my boss was a bomb ass cool dude and i'm going to miss working for him and he's fucked going into summer with no assistant so hopefully they figure it out in short order (unlikely because there are no workers in that area)
pretty excited to move on, there's a few cool places closer to me hiring including a place that fabricates and preassembles log cabin homes on hwy 2 that would be interesting to work at. the unfortunate thing is i'm most certainly going to be taking a big pay hit and the next place is going to make me actually work instead of fucking around most of the time. gunna enjoy being a neet for the rest of the week since my severance package was huge and the weather is nice
not terribly surprised considering my position really wasn't necessary as full time year round and i was more surprised when they offered full time to me in the first place, and i was starting to get pretty sick of the commute and job in general after six years. my boss was a bomb ass cool dude and i'm going to miss working for him and he's fucked going into summer with no assistant so hopefully they figure it out in short order (unlikely because there are no workers in that area)
pretty excited to move on, there's a few cool places closer to me hiring including a place that fabricates and preassembles log cabin homes on hwy 2 that would be interesting to work at. the unfortunate thing is i'm most certainly going to be taking a big pay hit and the next place is going to make me actually work instead of fucking around most of the time. gunna enjoy being a neet for the rest of the week since my severance package was huge and the weather is nice
been about a month now and i've established a budget and a new routine in regards to employment, and after everything's settled i've had a stillness of mind that i haven't had in some years now. working for a large company is nice because you're essentially anonymous and as long as you vaguely do what you're supposed to no one says anything, and no one's really keeping an eye on you because the largess of the corporation doesn't require it. i have never cared about working and i hate selling my time generally so the less i have to care about it the better, and the schedule has left me with the mornings to myself which is my favorite time of day :D
most of the churches i attended are disintegrating rapidly and a lot of my social ties (except for a few close friends) have become very distant, which frankly i'm fine with. because i have to work sunday evenings now i've stopped attending any service at all in favor of just reading scripture and meditating while working the land, which frankly feels closer to god than the foibles i've been dealing with in the church. i pretty much only go into town to work, and i just buy the things i need on my lunch hour so i have as much time to work on the land as possible. occasionally i'll visit a friend in town, but for the most part i just wait for them to visit me instead
i've noticed that a lot of my bad habits, including drinking, have essentially disappeared after i've withdrawn socially which has really made me wonder quite a bit about how to evaluate the effects of my relationships with others going forward. currently i have few firm answers but i'm also feeling a peace beyond description so i'm taking my time to figure it out. my plan currently is to continue withdrawing for the summer and meditating on what i've learned as well as the scriptures so i can begin rebuilding my relationships in the winter in a more effective way than just rushing into everything immediately as i had been doing this last half decade or so. i do genuinely believe that sometimes the best thing that can happen to a person is everything becoming suddenly uprooted, which was exactly what i did when i came here originally so i'm used to parsing it out now
most of the churches i attended are disintegrating rapidly and a lot of my social ties (except for a few close friends) have become very distant, which frankly i'm fine with. because i have to work sunday evenings now i've stopped attending any service at all in favor of just reading scripture and meditating while working the land, which frankly feels closer to god than the foibles i've been dealing with in the church. i pretty much only go into town to work, and i just buy the things i need on my lunch hour so i have as much time to work on the land as possible. occasionally i'll visit a friend in town, but for the most part i just wait for them to visit me instead
i've noticed that a lot of my bad habits, including drinking, have essentially disappeared after i've withdrawn socially which has really made me wonder quite a bit about how to evaluate the effects of my relationships with others going forward. currently i have few firm answers but i'm also feeling a peace beyond description so i'm taking my time to figure it out. my plan currently is to continue withdrawing for the summer and meditating on what i've learned as well as the scriptures so i can begin rebuilding my relationships in the winter in a more effective way than just rushing into everything immediately as i had been doing this last half decade or so. i do genuinely believe that sometimes the best thing that can happen to a person is everything becoming suddenly uprooted, which was exactly what i did when i came here originally so i'm used to parsing it out now
It’s been about 7 months since I last touched the site, and honestly, not much has changed. I still wake up, do stuff on my computer, then go back to sleep. I think I’ve fully lost any drive for employment (and employers seem to have lost interest in me too, so it works out, I guess).
As for what I did today,
I spun up a new webserver (technically yesterday, but I never went to sleep so it still counts!). Figuring out Debian again after like a year was actually kinda fun. The goal was to add a comment system to my site since Disqus is awful, and I think it turned out pretty nice! Even if I only get around 20 visits a day, having a site that’s yours to tinker with is just satisfying.
"The universe itself has an unlimited supply of generosity and surprise built in, and as designers we only need to keep our eyes open to what is here."